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“You need not wonder at my knowing all human languages; for, to tell you the truth, I also understand all the secrets of human silence.” – Saint Apollonius of Tyana

Welcome to my blog. I have pondered starting a blog for years, and in the past, had a few profane blogs from time to time. This one came at a strange time. One that forced me to not only converse in language but to relearn the mysteries of silence.

I deleted all of my social media accounts in 2018. Bad timing for the upcoming pandemic, so I re-started an Instagram account on March 20th, 2020. I remembered Instagram as one of the more favorable places. While I had Discord to keep in touch with various esoteric groups privately, I was still very social media-lite. An Instagram account would help me keep in touch during such isolated times. I could also use it for advertising online classes that I teach through my local O.T.O. body.

Coming back was great. I used the profile image and Latin Vulgate quote that I had for years on Discord, and everyone knew who I was at first sight, so long as they knew me. Promoting my classes was odd, primarily since I teach on a volunteer basis right now, but it was nice to see the conversation spread. Sometimes it felt like others were acting as a copycat of my material, but that’s how social media works… right?

Then someone took my profile image and quote, layered them on each other, and watermarked it as their own. The same day a friend notified me of that; I was due to give a class on the history of Baphomet and noticed several of the repost accounts addressing this exact same subject, poorly. I was tilted. There’s forwarding and giving credit, and then there’s taking exactly what I am doing without so much as tagging me.

I knew that something had to change, and in true Thelemic fashion, you start with yourself. Why did stealing this content anger me while previous content theft just made me roll my eyes? How silly was it that the operative norm of social media got under my skin? Why had I so freely shared unique research and personally meaningful concepts? 

It was silly, yet it was also an indication that I had gone a bit too far. There’s sharing, but I tend to overdo it. I’m the guy who writes novels in your comment section. This also brought me to the realization that I need an outlet for a longer form of writing. 

I couldn’t pull the trigger back then, and I knew it. I would’ve pointed fingers and started silly useless online drama. I needed a break. So I shared the sign of silence and took a posting lent.

It’s forty days later now. Welcome to the repository of longer-form posts and my rambling thoughts. Though there will be changes, despite the open-source notions I once championed (that are now eliminating all sense of personal privacy and putting everyone at risk with every data breach,) I will be keeping some secrets. Those who know me personally may gain more esoteric nuggets, but I have relearned the virtue of silence and will use it justly. There’s a time to speak and a time to use the magical formula of STFU.

When in doubt, it’s best to stay occult and keep silent. You are under no obligation to share your life; no one is. You don’t have to tell anyone your thoughts, let alone everyone! Hard to remember these days but try it sometime. I’ve found it lovely.